Death To The Patriarchy

It's a beautiful life, but I'm not concerned
It's a beautiful dream, but a dream is earned
I can dress like a boy, I can dress like a girl
Keep your beautiful words, 'cause I'm not concerned
'Cause your world is such a shame
'Cause your world's obsessed with fame
'Cause your world's in so much pain
'Cause your world is
'Cause your world is
Up in flames
It's a beautiful plan (hmm), but I'm not concerned (oh yeah)
It's a beautiful game (hmm) that I never learned
People tell me to shut my mouth (shut your mouth)
That I might get burned
Keep your beautiful lies (hmm) 'cause I'm not concerned
'Cause your world is such a shame
'Cause your world's obsessed with fame
'Cause your world's in so much pain
'Cause your world is
'Cause your world is
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Happy halloween! First full moon on Halloween in 76 years! I decided to dress up as the devil himself for halloween. A scary clown! Can you guess who I was by looking at the above pictures?

Imagine a man so sick and obsessed with being a superstar he can do whatever he wants. He can grab women by the pussy, he can run for president, he can treat Americans as if they are his fans. He can become president and destruct and disrupt all of our lives just to feed off of his ego and narcissism....

You know what I find unacceptable? That we have to fight and explain to people why they should absolutely not vote for Trump during this election. It’s just unacceptable. I will not do that. I will not explain to them that this man is vile, evil, racist, and a threat to all of our lives. At this point the issue is that they are just as vile as he is...


It becomes a problem when we have to accept the people in our lives who are okay with this type of behavior. They are okay with having a dictator who is only a president for their party but not the entire country. These people helped allow over 200,000 people die. I blame them. I don’t just blame Trump anymore. I blame them too. 


I blame them because they are selfish just like he is. I understand that he encourages the behavior, the entitlement, the selfishness, the foolishness, and the idiocy. That’s where he needs to be held accountable. But these people are responsible and also should be held accountable for supporting this. It’s on them. It’s on the folks who voted for this and will vote for it again. It’s on the folks who didn’t support him but support him now. It’s on the folks who didn’t vote period or voted third party. 

Yes, I do blame you third party voters too. I do blame the folks who did not and will not vote. However I’m not as angry with them because I know deep down they want better than the choices that were given. They don’t like Trump and they don’t see a difference in the candidates. 


However there are major differences between the candidates. And they need to get a grip and come to reality over the fact that we only run on a two party system. So not voting or voting third party only helps one of the two parties actually win. I mean I am exhausted explaining that to these people to the point where they make everything seem hopeless and useless. It’s hard getting to them just like it’s hard getting to Trump supporters.


They need to realize the Supreme Court has been on the line. Everything they find corrupt or unjust about our society can only get worse depending on the Supreme Court justices that could be appointed. That is the exact consequence we had to witness during this presidency.


We had Brett Kavanaugh appointed as a Supreme Court justice. He was accused of sexual assault and has little to no experience. A conservative who is pro life....


As if we haven’t suffered enough in 2020, of course Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg had to pass away. RIP RBG....Her wishes: “My most fervent wish is that I will not be replaced until a new President is installed”. 


Her wishes were disrespected and completely ignored by the Republican Party and administration. The phony christians. The same people in 2016 who set a new precedent saying “new justices would not be confirmed in an election year” 237 days before the election when Obama tried to nominate Merrick Garland to be a Supreme Court Justice. 


Now in 2020 these same republicans confirmed Amy Coney Barrett to the Supreme Court just eight days before an election. This is after over sixty million people have already early voted...This woman is anti abortion and anti LGBT rights. She wants to dismantle the affordable care act and take away healthcare from millions of people during a global deadly pandemic....


This is a disgrace. I can’t accept that people support this. I can’t fathom that people who hate our government so much because of issues just like this refuse to vote or choose to vote third party. They think it sucks on both ends? Well this wouldn’t have happened if Hillary won in 2016 and it will only continue to get worse if Trump wins again....It’s 2020 and we are moving backwards hundreds of years. I am terrified for the future. I shouldn’t have to feel this way, none of us should.


I have hated this man for as long as I know. When Obama became president his racism and disgust for Obama became so apparent and that’s why he decided to run for president. America was becoming too black for him. As it was especially becoming too black for his supporters. I hated him so much and knew in my gut what America would look like if he became president.


We’d be at each other’s throats, we’d see White supremacists gain power again. We’d see KKK all over the place coming out from hiding. Remember when folks would scare you if you went to certain places saying you can spot the KKK in the most deserted places if you go to those specific locations late at night? Well now they are everywhere in plain sight. In my opinion anyone with A Trump sign or Trump flag on their porch or hanging on their car window, or anyone wearing a MAGA hat might as well have a white hoody on in KKK gear....I knew in my gut this is what America would be. 


I also worried he’d start wars with Muslim or Asian countries such as China because of how racist and vile he is. Thankfully thus far he hasn’t set off an atomic bomb but there still is time for that. If he loses the election I can see him doing it to be spiteful. If he wins again I can definitely see it happening in the next four years. 


I knew the Supreme Court was at risk. If he has the power to pick Supreme Court justices not only will it put women’s rights at risk, it would put my rights at risk as a gay man. And people I know think I shouldn’t worry or care cause my rights probably won’t be so much at risk living in New York City. Well I still do care and I still do worry. 


I knew he wasn’t for the LGBT community. However for whatever sick reason he was able to recruit LGBT members, just like he was able to recruit other oppressed groups. I mean it blows my mind that women support him. It blows my mind that people of color support him. It makes me sick that Kanye West is a Trump supporter and then staged a whole third party run to try and help Trump win. I mean the man is beyond mentally unstable and he shouldn’t be allowed to run for President. Kanye should be in a conservatorship unlike Britney Spears who is still fighting for her freedom. Shit, Trump should be in a conservatorship....


I have to really question why anyone apart of an oppressed group would go against their fellow oppressed people struggling to make it in this society when they know exactly how it feels? Self hatred is real folks. People try so hard to be accepted that they’ll go against their own people, they go against themselves, their own interests, and support something that is so beyond dangerous for them. That’s called “self sabotaging”....


He downplayed the pandemic when it first happened. I already wrote about all of his lies. We are all aware. If you’re a Trump supporter reading this, you are aware and you know you are. Everyone knows it. His own supporters never even denied it. They just made excuses. They believe his stupid lies and excuses that even a three year old would see and comprehend. 


“He didn’t want us to panic”. 


“It was so new that no one could’ve handled it better”. 


“He closed the boarder to China saving millions of lives and Nancy Pelosi tried to stop him”. 


“We didn’t know how bad it would be”....


Okay......Bull shit. Fucking bull shit. He didn’t close the boarder to China because he cared about the pandemic. He closed it cause he’s racist and kept purposely calling it the “China virus”....Okay so even if it’s solely China’s fault, why didn’t he close ALL the boarders? Why were people still allowed to travel to Europe and all over the world and country back and forth?  This was global! 


I was around people who went to Italy when Italy was hit really bad. I was around people who went to Japan as Japan was really bad and I got sick right after being exposed to them back in March. But sure, just closing the boarder to China was the right thing to do....It saved millions of lives. It was so helpful! Give him a round of applause everybody!


There is audio proof of him admitting he knew about how bad the virus would be way before it got here. He admitted he lied on tape. But his supporters are so delusional that when the audio leaked they continued on with these same bull shit excuses....


Okay come early October we find out that he allegedly has the virus. He and his entire administration did not social distance or follow the protocols that the CDC and Dr. Fauci have been pleading with us to follow as things got worse and worse with this pandemic. 


What did he do? He went to Walter Reed Medical Center and got the best care that the average Joe could not possibly get. When I was sick in March I wasn’t allowed to work for almost a month but also could not get tested for the virus because there weren’t tests. People had to be near death to get tested and nine times out of ten it was too late. 


He got the best medical care, a cocktail of all kinds of experimental drugs, and was one of the lucky few who had mild symptoms. Many aren’t so fortunate when they get this virus which is what we have been saying since day one. I wrote about this back in March. This is why people needed to stay home. Because one person can have the virus and not even have a single symptom and they can pass it along to someone else and for that next person it can either feel like a small cold, a bad cold, a flu, or worse. It’s random and different for everyone no matter their age, their health status, height, weight, or gender.


I have literally cut people off for not following protocols when the pandemic was hit bad. For hanging out in big groups, having big gatherings, and going to parties. People who were close friends. I felt disrespected as a healthcare worker being hands on with this and seeing death every day. I felt disrespected as a human. We have a president encouraging this behavior. 


Over 220,000 deaths and what was his response when he got the virus? That we should not let it dictate our lives. Since he felt great he was telling Americans, the people that he is the leader of, to stop taking the virus so seriously and was calling for things to reopen...He refused to wear a mask and didn’t care who he would spread the virus to. 


He refused to do the second debate with Joe Biden since the network wanted to do it virtually to keep everyone safe. The first debate he was a neurotic, arrogant, racist piece of shit who would not let Joe Biden finish one sentence without interrupting. He hardly answered any questions and could not condemn white supremacy when asked to do so.


I never in my life hated someone the way I hate Donald Trump. I never in my life wished harm or such awful things to happen to someone as I wish on Donald Trump. I’ve hated him since he ever first ran for president. I’ve hated him when I heard more and more about his past. I’ve hated him ever since I had to literally accept and put up with people in my life supporting him, and that’s what I think I hate about him the most. I take it personal. It hurts. It hurts so much I can’t even explain it. 


My own family members know I was a first responder and healthcare worker and they will vote for someone who will continue to put my life in danger. My own family members will vote for someone who has a Vice President who is homophobic. They will vote for someone who will nominate Supreme Court justices who can attempt to strip my rights away. They tolerate all this racism and hatred. They deny it. They listen to Fox News and believe socialism is scary and we must not have that here, disregarding that my future may go to shit as I get older and have to live in this nasty world....


Look....I love them. I don’t think they know better, they’re old and just don’t know better. Some are young and just do whatever they were taught and don’t pay attention to the news. But there are no excuses anymore for anyone who will vote for this. However I will tolerate it and put up with it from them because at the end of the day family is family and we can’t choose our family. It still hurts and drives me crazy and I think it is what fuels me to hate Trump the most, but I will always tolerate my family. Friends however, relationships, sorry I will proudly discriminate against you if you are a Trump supporter.


If you see my post about politics a while back I wrote about how I learned to tolerate and embrace all Trump supporters. I wrote about how the acceptance of them is important for peace and unity. But I refuse to tolerate them anymore. They don’t want peace and unity. They want division and hate. 


We are living in a global pandemic. Our country was hit the worst in the entire world cause of this man and I will not tolerate anyone who allows this, accepts it, and makes excuses for it. Sorry, not sorry! 


I’ve also grown to see the character of some of the people I was friends with that were Trump supporters. They weren’t good people. They weren’t smart people. They believed in conspiracy theories and lies and kept spreading false information amongst each other, to myself, and all over the internet. There is no excuse for that especially during a very serious pandemic. I swear in my gut I know at least one of these people did it on purpose knowing damn well they were spreading lies but for whatever reason they got a kick out of it....


I don’t think we’ve ever been at each other throats or at war with each other like this in modern history. I don’t think this has ever happened before when any other person was president. Not even Bush who was one of the worst presidents ever. We weren’t this angry with each other, we weren’t this hateful. Trump did this.


The problem is that Trump uses fear mongering to persuade people to be afraid of human beings but not pandemics. Trump uses fear mongering to get people afraid of immigrants and black people but not a virus that wiped out over 200,000 people under his leadership. Trump most likely staged having covid in my opinion, along with his wife and administration, to try and downplay it and possibly push a new drug he invested in. 


Trump did this because he knows he messed up and this was the worst part of his presidency that will go down in history. Instead of owning up to it, he decided to continuously downplay it as much as he could, despite how many more lives he was putting at risk...


Trump is a criminal and a liar and the most dangerous president we’ve ever had in modern day history. The saddest thing about it is that people we love, people we know, people we care about fall for his antics and support such a vile evil man who is a threat to our lives and a threat to the oppressed. He is fooling them and they can’t even see it no matter how much we try to make them open their eyes and see they are falling for a maniac whose manipulating them with blatant lies. You would think he was so handsome and charming to get such a strong base to back him up. 


He is causing us to be so divided from those around us in a way we never ever would have expected or seen before. Breaking families and friendships and tarring us apart, having us at war with each other and at each other’s throats. When have we ever been this angry over a president? 


The debates were a disaster. So undiplomatic. So immature. It’s like watching a real housewives reunion on bravo. Why do people think this is okay? Why do people make excuses for him and blame his opponent when he is the reason the debates are like that? It’s so exhausting trying to figure out how or why this is real life....


I could barley get through the second debate. Hearing him degrade and bring down Cuomo and claiming how bad New York City is. I am confused. Is the virus real or fake? Why was New York City hit bad but we shouldn’t let the virus dictate our lives. Makes sense....


I am sorry, but was he hands on with this virus like I am? Did he see it get from horrific to better like my coworkers did? Man fuck Trump and anyone who agrees with him, especially those who are lucky enough to never have to suffer from PTSD from dealing with covid patients. The constant fear that you may get it and die while you see body after body, slow painful death after slow painful death. I am outraged by the downplay of this and the belittling of a governor who helped get us to a much better place. Andrew Cuomo is a hero. Trump is a villain. Shame on anyone who thinks differently. 


In 2015-2016 I would constantly post about Trump losing. I felt like he didn’t have a chance. Never in my life have I ever felt so defeated till the day came that he won. It felt like 9/11 all over again. I knew the world would go to shit and everyone thought I was crazy. Look at it now four years later. Need I say more? 


I just wish I could understand his supporters but at this point it’s nothing more or less than a cult. They praise him like he’s Jesus when they are supposedly Christians. This is what Jesus would support? A man who separates children from their parents coming to this country seeking asylum? And puts them in cages? A racist? A man who downplayed a pandemic that is killing more and more Americans each day and credits himself for being some type of superhero? A man who is pushing to reopen everything during a pandemic without caring about the risks that come with it? 

They are so naive...
They think we are not aware of their crimes.
We know, but we are just not ready to act...
The storm isn't in the air, it's inside of us.
I want to tell you about love and loneliness,
but it's getting late now
can't you hear outside of your Supreme hoodie, the wind that's beginning to howl?


At this point I expect him to win again....Him winning was worse than 9/11 and I just fear life will get worse from here on out and I worry about if I’m going to live or not considering this pandemic and being a front line worker. But I will say this...


I’ve become a very spiritual person as you guys know. So as negative and angry as I sound throughout this post, it’s solely because of Trump. As I stated earlier, never in my life have I ever hated anyone like this. And they say to hate someone means you care. And yes I do care. I care about my rights, I care about my friends, I care about this country and he’s an absolute disgrace along with his supporters. 


If he wins again I know we’ll get through it. We will survive. The future will not be so bright and I don’t know what other destructive things will happen in my lifetime. So far I dealt with 9/11 living blocks away from the World Trade Center. I basically was forced to be disaster relief when hurricane sandy happened and my job was flooded with twenty five feet of water, was underpaid and treated like shit at that while breathing in toxic fumes and sharing PPE with coworkers including masks...Then covid came and hit New York the worst in the entire world and I became a front line worker and had to deal with that....


At this point yes I suffer from PTSD, but whatever life has to throw at me I’m prepared and ready. Including the possibility of Trump winning again. The more family and friends support him the more I will not tolerate it. I will say that. But I am surrounded by people who have brains, who have hearts, and who know a thing or two about empathy. I am white privileged. I grew up pretty okay, yet I was able to empathize with people less fortunate than myself.


I had my hardships being gay. I’ve been harassed, bullied, and almost killed several times. I have people in my life who don’t care and will vote for an administration constantly threatening to take my rights away and not treat me like an equal individual. This is part of why I stick to myself and learned to care about myself and love myself in a way no one ever will. I’ve never been understood by family, by the men I’ve chose in life. But I am grateful for my friends who understand me. I don’t think I’d be alive today without them. 


I pray the world heals and gets better. I pray this virus goes away and we can go back to normal some day. I miss going to concerts. That was always my escape from reality, my favorite escape. I’ve learned to escape through lighting candles, buying crystals, lighting incense and sage, meditation and understanding that everything happens for a reason.


All I know is I did my part. I waited three and a half hours on a very long line to vote early. The people on line were beautiful and willing to fight for change. 


I’ve never seen anything like this in my life. The place to do early voting had a line that went around blocks like a huge circle. I came first thing in the morning and this was the turn out so far in my neighborhood on day ONE! I had hope for once.


Every conversation I’ve heard from beautiful people saying the same thing. 


“More people are voting this year more than ever because they know they need to!” 


“One guy is starving the country, killing people, will never in his life know what it’s like to be poor. Doesn’t care about the poor.”


“He said he was the ‘least racist person in the room’ he was admitting he was racist. He didn’t say he wasn’t racist! That tells me he didn’t even go to school, you don’t know English. Say you ‘ARE NOT RACIST!’ Thank you for admitting what we already knew all along!” 


There are people legitimately hurting from this presidency. Hurting in a way no other presidency has hurt them before.


I waited on the line despite how long it was, despite how many days of early voting there are. I did this because I don’t only care about myself but I care about other people. 


I care about what Supreme Court justices will be appointed who could possibly strip away my rights and the rights of others. I care about human decency.


I voted to help stop hatred, to help stop this horrific pandemic I unfortunately have to work hands on with, I am voting for YOU. Even if you are voting against ME! 


Go out there and vote it’s the LEAST you can do! And yes everyone had a mask on, I could tell who they were voting for.


I hope humanity fixes itself, I hope people learn to find peace and to unite despite their differences. I will not accept Trump supporters because 220,000 deaths fall on them as much as it does on him. But if one day they realize they were wrong I would embrace them with open arms. I deserve better, we all do as Americans.


I really hope and pray you vote. If not for yourself then for your fellow Americans who have so much at stake right now. We need people to be less selfish and be more understanding and cooperative during these times, and more importantly be more compassionate....Peace and love! 


It’s a beautiful life. Death to the patriarchy!